Why start? Why even try?

an Introduction

“There she is, a human being, diving into the unknown, and she is wide awake.”

— Ottessa Moshfegh

Hi. My name is Anaïs Laure and I am an aspiring writer.

I want to create my own little world on this publication, where what I say goes and I have full control, because I don’t hold much of it in my day to day life. That’s the beauty of being a writer isn’t it? Playing god over a narrative that is completely constructed by you and is yours only, when everything around you feels out of your hands.

And so here, in my digital respite, I will choose to present myself vulnerably and completely naked to the rest of the world that is interested in seeing this part of me. Regardless if you know me or not, you will come to truly know who I am. I want those who choose to be an extension of my audience to understand me deeply and wholly through the portal of my words.

This concept, this particular wanting, is perhaps, very peculiar. I will write things here and put them on display—the things I would never even verbally utter to the souls that reside closest to my heart. But again, that’s the beauty of being a writer, I suppose. And maybe I’m wrong. Maybe you, the reader, are closer to me than those I know in my life, because you listen and are taking the time to know me. If this is the case, then I will grant you the sacred key to my thoughts, but shut the door on my loved ones.

I write because I harness a burning desire to be heard. And not only heard, but to stand out among others. Not to feel extraordinary, but special. I recognize that I desperately need this, because what is existence without the external validation of others?—for you have not lived if it is not documented for others to witness and be apart of that experience—during and/or after it. I believe this can be healthy, whilst destructive, so there is a balance I must maintain, as there is in all things.

Simply put,

I want to practice my art and develop my own voice, and I believe that this is the perfect publication for me to do so. I’ve always had a passion for writing and dreamed to be an author, but never actualized it because it seems impossible at times. But, things have changed for me recently. I have begun to prioritize creativity over everything because it is the only thing that will keep me alive and well. I am now starting to nurture that far-off dream that was planted in me at a very young age.

So, here’s to bringing our fantasies into the threshold of reality! Because it is very possible, no matter what this over-consumptive and capitalistic society screams at you.

We were made to create. Art is vital to existence. It surely is to mine.

Here I will muse on art, literature, society and culture, sexuality, faith, and my personal reflections. So expect prose, essays, think pieces, journalistic entries, book reviews, and more. All that sort of fun stuff :)

If you want to know more about me, check out my About page. Here’s also a cute lil photo of me in a vintage shop!